Does anyone else on here hate their birthday?

Mine is in 3 weeks time,all the past years i used to get excited for my bday thinking i'l get a surprise or an amzing present or just a good time but it never happened,seems like its a ll cliche,people dont even try to make me enjoy my bday and i always end up crying.so this year ive decided to just not celebrate,not try and go out or get money from my parents.i want to stay in my room and maybe have a few drinks.its my 18th by the way,is this weird or does anyone else feel this way